2023/5/24

I was stretching my hamstring on a bench, when I realised he stood in front of me like a shadow. I screamed. It was embarrassing.

He asked how my day’s going, I told him good. This is the third time I saw him in the park. Then he invited me for a walk, I wanted to continue my run but I was curious about his back story. Last time he refused to tell me, but from how he describe his home in London(rough neighbourhood) and past life, I had a hunch he probably dealt drugs.

30 mins later he told me he dealt drugs, and this life here, right now, feels like his second life. 😂 I was surprise he choose to tell me and also slightly amused by this strange ability of mine, actually, a few strange abilities. Big D always joked and told his housemate I’m a spy- apart from the mental pressure and dealing with my conscience, I’ll probably be a rather successful one if I am.

‘You are very easy to talk to.’ He said.

‘Yeah?’ I’ve heard it a few times, I still don’t quite understand what that means.

He told me a person is probably happier without money, I looked at him confused.

‘People don’t take you seriously if you have money. They want money, not you.’ He said. ‘Do you like money?’ He asked.

‘I do.’ I said. ‘Who doesn’t?’

We(maybe just me) watched ducks and bugs for a while.

In the middle of park I felt very thirsty and wanted to get orange juice. He said he needs to go somewhere so I said he should go, but he insisted to walk me to Sainsbury, when we exit the park he’s gonna be late so he said he won’t be walking me further, I said ok, he hesitated and asked if im fine with it. Why should I not be fine with it? watched him ran to the taxi, then crossed the road by myself.

Saw Sophie will be on the same car with me on Saturday. I can already feel the headache. She’s the kind of women I generally avoid if I can, a space with any Sophie inside will be a strange alien universe of ‘shagging, fit, rugby, men’.