2025/2/5

It makes me a lot happier to talk to an engineer than a finance person.

Earlier at dinner I accidentally slip out I went to see a VC guy in Beijing- he was arrogant and disrespectful. The entire conversation was full of him saying how insignificant engineers are in terms of business, and all is a game of capital. anyone in this position can be successful if he/she has the capital to back him/her such and such. I told my mum about this because I was thinking about seeing some ‘friends’(but really, do I have any friends in London? Lmao) in London when I’m there next week, and she said there’s no need, people won’t even be bothered to see me if they can’t get something from me or have anything to do with me in the future (which i agree), and some might even look down on me(which I agree too). So I told her about the VC guy.

There are plenty of people that look down on me. I said, in a lighthearted manner. He’s not the first one. I’m not lacking.

Do I care? I’m not sure. He’s not contributing anything to my life, just a waste of time.

I don’t know if I want to go to London. I said.

I feel a certain type of uncomfort in my stomach just to think about going to the UK again. What will you do if you associate a location with feeling used and discarded? Feelings aren’t true, nor objective, but they are real and they exist.

Anyway, I had a really nice conversation with a guy from Xiaomi and he told me how chaotic their NPU architecture is because they followed the GPGPU design and now their VE and SE has a very difficult interface. Hmmmmmmm

I like kissing Cell’s tiny hairy face. She seems a lot better now, flying up and down the staircase. We’ll take her to the vet tomorrow

Я пытаюсь больше читать и писать по-русски 😉