2019 pictures

I have no idea where life is going while I’m doing it.

Talked to Jackson. Oops I do have friends in London. 😂 I apologise for all the friends I forgot since we don’t talk to each other like every six months or something.

For a split second I thought would life be easier if I’m working for someone else. Then I remembered what happened to me last time when I worked for someone.

Flipped through some pics from 2019. Exactly 5 years ago when I accidentally had that horrible short hair because my hair snapped. I was so fed up with people calling me Sir like ‘Sir do you need a blanket’ I did not enjoy being a short man. and the first time a girl asked me for my number on the tube.

And I wasn’t sure if I was gay so I gave head to a girl then realised I’m definitely not gay. No offence bc she’s really really really hot. As in beautiful and fit. And smart and charming. I just don’t feel anything. Giving head to a girl was like ‘another random thing I tried’. 🥹😭😭😭 we never dated, didn’t had any prior knowledge to each other, it happened on a whim. I was washing my hands, she was leaning against the wall, tipsy, she asked if I can button her up, she was wearing a shirt with 3 or 4 top buttons open. So I did. Then we went to her place.

Later she published a novel, there’s character who’s a psychopath physicist or something. I never read it nor went back to explain I never meant to hurt her(if I did).

It was true I didn’t had a type. I think I do now. I tried all sorts of random things and random opportunities. The only thing I knew at the time was I’m looking for one person. It’s a very vague description. And it’s a shame it didn’t work out with many people I’ve met. Some I know are wonderful people. It’s difficult to have two people obsessed with each other in general