2025/11/22

I need to reflect on this. I took 3 weeks to realise he’s the wrong hire. This is way too long. 3 weeks of valuable money, time, and my sanity to debug with him at midnight and answer stupid questions like “but there isn’t a a JTAG on U280” of course there is!!! Ffs

What happened this week was, he reported the Linux kernel mismatch between Xilinx Runtime and our operating system on Tuesday. He could’ve changed the kernel on TUESDAY and install the Runtime then the driver correctly. But he didn’t. He brushed if off proceed to the next step of simulation. Then today he complained about the simulation was looking for online FPGA like AWS F1. It dragged me to debug with him too. I thought he installed everything correctly, and the mistake was in the instantiation file. Until I found out our machine don’t even have access to the card. I went back to install and asked him why there’s no driver. He said it’s Kernel mismatch and he told me before.

… told me??? You mean you told me and expect it to be magically solved?

The way he proceed without the driver doesn’t make any logical sense. And I have no idea why he did this.

1 My filtering mechanism was wrong and awful, 2 I’m too slow and too indecisive to take him off. I was too nice and patient. I should change my mindset. I’m not in university anymore. I’m not there to hold hands and teach everyone everything, I mean I did, but people should be able to learn those basic things.

Packing for next week. I hate leaving home. Actively avoiding texts.

Also you know what? My mum’s ex husband is definitely the reason I felt like an outsider for the last 10 years. She looks a lot happier and alive after divorce.