2024/6/5

I’m not happy that doctor’s gibberish scared my mum while I need to finish the fucking hardening because I need to sleep. DUDE, it’s a small fucking tunnel, tiny fucking tube on the outside of my ear which doesn’t pass through ANYTHING, there’s no need to tell her some patients had their cartilage cut open and partially removed because I know my thing is not that deep ffs it’s literally under my skin that’s it!!

I had to comfort her this is not that serious and he loves to play hero and over exaggerated the complexity of the surgery- and he’s not even my surgeon, he’s the resident doctor.

‘It’s not as complicated as my ovary surgery, you weren’t so worried back then, what are you worrying now?’ I asked. ‘She was putting rods and tubes inside me and cutting stuff literally on the skin of my ovary, which if she make a mistake for 1mm I’ll have a hole on my ovary. She also flipped up my womb to check the back side, remember? That’s way more dangerous than this. What’s the worse that could happen on this one? Even they cut the entire outside of my ear off I could still hear because my cochlear is inside!’ What I said was so ridiculous it made a smiled a bit. ‘That won’t happen.’ She said. ‘Of course it won’t.’ I said. ‘He’s telling you all those stuff because he doesn’t want to handle complaints when the incisions are slightly bigger than you expected.’

‘Ok then.’ She said. Looking slightly more assured. ‘I… I’ve never met your surgeon for this one. I worried.’ She said.

‘Do you want to meet him tomorrow morning? Maybe we can meet him before hand if we ask.’

‘No… I don’t think he’ll have time to talk to us.’ She said.

Fair enough. We do trust my gynaecologist a lot more. She’s a terrific doctor. Absolute angel.

Messaged mkk after finished hardening the macro. Told him there’s something wrong with copyview script. Gosh I hope that snake doesn’t win.

HHZ told me I should do a degree in IC design since this thing came so easy and natural to me. ‘I’m sick of school.’ I said. I love learning, I never liked school, was never a good student, skipped lots of classes and sneaked out mid class, never do prep- school was not the perfect setup for me. I always find hands on projects or actually doing something a lot more enjoyable. I’m actually learning. Not reciting some stuff I don’t understand. ‘Plus I don’t have the money for it anymore. Time’s different.‘

He sent me a sad looking sticker.

Ugh come on. I dodged masters for a reason.