2024/10/20

Thought about the stuff I wrote in the morning, with fair amount of anger. That was unnecessary. What a waste of energy, tears, my heart and soul. What a waste of time and money. How pointless the deep pain, heart aches I used to felt. As if I was in hell. What for?

Deleted Sam’s dissertation from iCloud.

Strange. I felt nothing. I thought I would feel something. 🥴

Can’t be bothered to write what happened last night. Something’s off about the pianist. He’s somewhat manipulative and insincere. I agreed to go to a Jazz bar with him tonight, although now I don’t want to. I will still go but I think this is the last time I’ll meet him.

Guy from physics told me about ZSJ and said he’s depressed etc etc.. Of course he is. Drinking heavily. Bragging to us he’s cheating. He had a theory why men will and should cheat. It made me laugh. And I never stopped making fun of him with his ‘trinity theory’. I mean he was nice to us but 😂 dude there are traces for stuff