2023/4/29

Was listening to a short podcast about Tucker Carlson, where they took a piece of audio where he said ‘… banning people from things they enjoy, is the purest form of power. When you can snatch someone’s pleasure away, you feel like GOD.’ Followed with a laugh. It made me laugh too. Humans are so evil

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Woke up by my own dream I also have Rhapsody on a theme of pagnini in my head too. ive listened too much for the past two days.

in the dream i was excited, adrenaline high, slightly rude and impatiently peel things off him, we were pulling and grabbing each other with slight force, like two animals fighting and playing. i went all over him to kiss him, and i heard ‘dont leave marks’

i stopped. had this burning anger all of a sudden but didnt become rude immediately ‘who else is going to see?’ i asked. it was like cold water to my face. ‘dont leave marks.’ he said again. i felt disgusted. ‘you ruined the mood completely.’ i said and left.

lmao i guess my sexual frustration dream is frustration only nowadays