2023/4/30

Couldn’t sleep

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The good news is I have a sleeping pattern now!!! I wake up automatically feeling alright

I really really want to watch the Barbie movie

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Was browsing some more movies

I used to watch fair amount of movies when I was a teenager. In a way it kinda defined my taste in beauty.

Not anymore. Haven’t watched much since I came back from Venice.

Chinese director have a beautiful way of portraying seduction and sexual tension. There’s a movie called 无极 which was considered a shit film at the time, but it was cinematically gorgeous- a romantic imagination most people don’t understand. I was 6 or 7 my mum took me to the cinema, I will never forget, the protagonist, a girl, grew up became a concubine(ie. Pet) of a prince, in the movie there was actually a massive massive golden cage(where Taylor swift copied decades later in her MV), and she was wearing long white feather dressing gown, like a bird. When the city was hold under siege, the opposition ask for her as a trade. She went up the wall, with a red shirt, she smile and asked the soldiers, ‘who wants to see what’s under this shirt?’ Everyone dropped their weapons and she took off one layer, there’s a scene where she was flown like a kite with her white feather gown( bc there’s a character that can run very fast), and there’s the sex scene very typically Chinese, doesn’t show things revealing, but the curtains, the shadows, the rain outside, hand gripping sheets or caressing skin, etc..

I figured I like unhealthy stuff quite early. There was a scene(from fast and furious maybe?) I saw when I was 6 or 7 again, where the girl was kidnapped or something and tucked to the trunk. I found that really exciting. (When I was young it wasn’t exactly excitement in a sexual way. But it morphed into one as I grow older.) Like I want to be kidnapped and kidnap someone just for the fun and thrill of it.

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watching sense and sensibility

Willoughby guy is so obviously a fuckboy what kind of people PDA and make everything known to everyone before promises are made? and why would the rich girl still marry him if she saw that moment? The whole thing looks soooo fishy I would call quit if I find the fiancé has an admirer or situationship like that ewww

Omg he came back what a shameless hypocrite. Why does he even have the face to come back 🤮

Jane Austin is too kind to those useless 💩