2025/5/30
The UK is crazy. I cooked some lasagna, washed my clothes, dried it, and it costs 1.69 pounds. This is absolutely bonkers. Until this day I still don’t understand why everyone here is paying third world country electricity bills as if it’s generated by the almighty Thor himself and requires a sacrifice of a baby human every 3 month.
What happened to all the wind and tidal energy you guys harvested??? Wtf??
My cold still hasn’t get any better, and I’m getting impatient with the pain in my windpipe and lungs. I’m also having running nose today where excess blowing caused the skin around my nostrils feel funny.
Sinah said I look thin. I was either in hospital or on my way to the hospital in 2024. And I was chemically castrated (lol) for 2 months, jokes, the best way to shock the unfounded endometriosis out is to injected some drug that makes my body believes I’m not in the age of reproduction anymore, and it turns out to be one of the options to chemically castrate sex offenders… I had weird menopause symptoms for a few weeks- that includes very random heart racing, feeling hot and feeling shaky. I was on the roof brushing some sand and dirt off, suddenly feeling dizzy, and it’s the first time I am fully aware it’s from the injection, because I know I haven’t done anything strange or stand up too quickly from a squatting position. Then we moved to oral drugs, which just like oral contraceptive, made me wanted to puke semi regularly.
I’ve lost at least 5 kilos of muscle. Not joking, I suspect even more. The dimension of my muscle definitely became smaller. Picking up a 20kg suitcase used to be easy for me, I could do one a hand. Lifting humans up weren’t difficult either, we used to throw Abby up in the air during line out, she’s like 70kg. Last month I was picking up the wok to get the fried veggies out of the wok and it was too heavy for me- I couldn’t tilt it and keep it steady for the entire duration. My mum looked at me in a shocking way.
You could really use some exercise. She said. And took over the wok.
Yeah. I murmured. Embarrassed by this whole situation.
