Six tentacles

I told HHZ what my great epiphany was today, and how I felt like I’m the last person to realise this.

‘Yeah we are years away from making an actual product. We are definitely at the telling story stage.’

‘Why am I the last one to understand?! I was so stressed by the entire find client situation.’ Tbf everyone quizzed me about this. It was driving me nuts.

Crazy.

I told him if we want the ‘epic story’, the story to the next climax, what we need to do for the next 5.5 months.

We were calculating in our brains how much workload there is, actually, and I made the decision we should talk tomorrow with more detailed pipeline for hardware and software + I need to start to calling fabs and ask who can tape out the fastest.

We were in brainstorm mode for 30 mins.

Then he ease the conversation down by some not so light topics- relationship.

‘He always asks me if he’s in my future plans, I want to say no… I mean, I’m 27, why do I have to make such plans now?!’

He also said he kept thinking about dating other people. Maybe browsing too many cute guys on Rednote.

I really don’t know. Because I wanted to make ‘future plans’ when I was 18 but everything was fucked up by the yogurt. I always wanted to. I genuinely don’t like to waste time on dealing with many men and swirling between them. It does not bring me joy, orgasm, and peace of mind, and I really really really need those stuff to stay sane and do more stuff. I want to settle down NOW, IMMEDIATELY, or maybe have it assigned and arranged when I born so I can do something else while having consistent good sex. My standards were never high, I’m only asking for 3 things, respect, support and good sex, I don’t even fucking care if the guy has blue skin or six tentacles. I’m literally asking for the bare minimum, and somehow they are lacking. Either they treat you like shit and see you as a piece of fuck meat ( or ‘porn+++’ lmao), or they try to put you down by either jealousy or insecurity, or they have a soft penis or don’t know how to use it correctly.

Am I less wanted sexually or less desirable? I think not. I don’t have multiple sex partners not because I can’t. I’m just tired, and busy, and don’t like to put eggs in multiple baskets because I like my intensity fucking high. And you don’t get the high if you are spreading thin.

So I kept my mouth shut while he talked about the situation. I don’t know him, but I would break up immediately.

You know what, six tentacles might be actually really nice 😂 literally six arms wrapping you around