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fuck. I can’t poop again. every time I come to this region my digestive tract isn’t happy. now my gut feel sore and i spent so much time on toilet but no results. and definitely no smooth well shaped poo. 😭😭😭😭😭 and it rains so much here I miss home

Mr Ma, the guy from government told me he found me being too humble, so when answering questions from the panel I need to act tougher and “gloss things a little”.

‘Human psychology is strange.’ He said. ‘Don’t be too honest.’

‘Ok.’ I said.

He’s right about honesty don’t always get me what I wanted. I was being too honest about my start up situation and the whole journey, it’s fucking difficult, so so so fucking difficult, every step, even my friend who started this thing together stop believing the mission himself. And it comes even harder when hiring people- I’ve asked a few people to come, which I clearly know what they are currently making and designing is not up to my standards, when they asked what’s the process is on my side I told them “it’s a mess”, where they immediately rejected to come. The things is, even I’m building shit, the thing I build is fancy new shit, it’s better than their outdated shit 😂🤣. Please.

My sister wasn’t so surprised HHZ won’t come.

‘He’ll regret this.’ She said. ‘But it’s the best for you guys. He doesn’t like difficult things nor have a huge appetite for wealth. At least your friendship is safe this way.’

I shrugged.

In the last couple of months I have faced so my difficulties myself and dealt everything on my own, and came to the realisation he’s not the best candidate as a co-founder in this run.

It’s true. Things have changed. I’ve changed.

Maybe it is for the best.