2025/8/27

Despite i need to move, messy Dr S situation, still haven’t got anything secured, alone and a lot of work, I’m in a good mood. So much has happened. I can’t even be bothered to write them- mostly people that are unimportant.

I was thinking switching to Dienogest because I forgot the pills for a few days now I’m bleed so much non stop and I could feel the pulsing pain between my small intestines and womb- it means it’s coming back. It used to be way worse before the surgeon took the endometriosis tissue out, it was unexpected shooting pain that made me can’t breathe or move.

But I need to see a doctor first.

The good news is I’m able to fit in my old dresses and gowns. I look absolutely fabulous, just like when I was 20. Gosh. I’m actually so pretty. How did I tolerate people telling me I’m not? 😅🥲 If I could go back I would tell myself I am movie star type of pretty. And yes there is a high probability the reason people are looking is because I am the most beautiful person in the room. Not anything less. How did I even get used to men telling me I’m not their type, I’m not the typical beauty, they prefer someone else but I’m ok to be a placeholder.

I just found out I’m the definition of beauty. 😂

I almost feel sad for myself. I wasted my youth.

Hey, there’s still time, right?