2025/2/25

When I was in that solar cell equipment company I was confused why Dr Shi is up all the time and messaging us at 3AM,

Now I understand 😂😅

Also got taken out for a date and he brought me flowers 🥹 ahhhh it’s so easy to make me happy

The mushroom parfait was so good I asked for a second portion.

It took a while for my brain to process I am wanted - men actually desire my presence instead of block me whenever they want. Someone would pet me and detangle my hair and put their warm hand on my belly. It made me sad and angry at myself for a few seconds. I was stupid.

Of course I am bitter. And I should be.

Have my suspicion and worst assumptions changed? No. Not yet.

Cried. Don’t know if it’s stress or tiredness or old memories or something has changed.

Couldn’t go back to sleep. Tears went down my face quietly. I didn’t had a particularly strong emotion or sharp pain in my chest, yet somehow I am crying and it didn’t stopped.

I don’t know what I’m crying for.

I … I couldn’t think of any.

Also being fucking ADMIN1 leaves me no time to sleep, now im crying and dealing with issues ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh