2025/2/16

I’m tired. I want to go home.

We are in Cambridge, about to meet Sinah. It’s dark and cold outside and I start to feel drowsy.

We went to a udon place. It’s sooo sooo soo good to see her. I’m happy to talk to her every time. I genuinely feel energetic talking to her.

She mentioned they might in need of graphic cards, I told her she can try on our machine. (Although I have no idea what research they are doing.😂)

You don’t seem to sleep well when you are in the UK. My niece said.

No I could only sleep a few hours. That’s why I became so frail. I said.

Why is that? She asked.

I don’t know. I said.

Maybe it’s the wrong place for you. She said.

I agree. I said.

I wasn’t in a good mood particularly this morning. I came back from the cold stroll with Will at 1 am or something, dealt some urgent work stuff when i came back. Went to bed like 5 AM and woke up at 8.  I was really disliking everyone and everything today. Sinah made everything a lot better.

During dessert Sinah told me she’s dating someone new. I’m surprised how fast people find someone new. It took her 8 months or something. Then I realised maybe my scale is wrong in some ways, my single life of 6 years as a reference would make everything seem short. I remember yesterday when I told Will I was single since November 2018 and didn’t had sex since summer 2019, he was shocked. He said he could never do this.

As time goes by I have even less room to take in someone who I’m not satisfied with completely. Some people are single even they are in a relationship or married, I’m not interested to be in this particular situation.