2024/9/15

It’s been a long week.

Had my final meal in Beijing with HHZ.

This is the true Season 1 finale. To the Hot Pot! Season 10 finale: Ring the Bell! He joked.

Ring the Bell! I said.

When can we ring the bell? He asked. 10 years?

5. I said.

5? That’s really fast. He said.

On our way to hot pot he talked about his feelings for SJ.

There are plenty of good men out there. He said. He’s not irreplaceable. I mean, at this age, who is truly irreplaceable?

I’m looking for someone irreplaceable. I said.

That is a very high standard. He said.

That is what I’m looking for. I said.

In the airport I answered some guy’s design request. I don’t know if we’ll sign.

On the plane I cried when I thought about Sam. Like what I told Sarah, I don’t know what I’m sad about anymore. I thought everything through.

If I my standard for love is so high, no one can satisfy my request, I’m ready to be single for the rest of my life.