2024/9/10

Met J and CQ yesterday.

CQ is doing a PhD in Sanskrit studies. We caught up on people we knew. I told him where Sinah ZSJ and Vick are and how much Vick is suffering under his abusive supervisor- they work 6.5 days per week. He told me he saw MYY on a video site doing live stream the other day, he was shocked. I was slightly shocked but not too shocked.

What was it about? I asked.

I don’t know. He answered. I wasn’t too interested.

Later in the evening I had dinner with J, he lost a lot of hair. His head used to be full of dark little curls.

I told him what I’m up to.

He told me what he’s up to.

Then he told me he’s interested with psychology lately and consider to get a qualification for therapist or something.

I was intrigued. Why are you into psychology? I asked.

To understand what people think and be able to influence them. He answered.

Do you want to influence people? I asked.

He seems slightly taken aback by this question. You know, influence people in positive ways. He said.

Oh, ok. I said.

So another man who desires power.

Psychology? Nah. Not my thing. Influence people on purpose? Nah. Don’t give a fuck.

Psychology gives you 0 insights about the individual you want to know about, but the insight of the writer and the preacher who advocates it.

Or mass psychology, which can only be used for selling people stuff or manipulate people to kill.

And in my humble opinion, who tries to manipulate the fate of other people will lose control of their own.

Later we went to watch some avant garde show/exhibition thing, which is in between amusing boring and disgusting. I left early and went to have ice cream and ride bike with HHZ. I was so much happier with ice cream than some strange people making choked up noises and disturbing screams.

I told HHZ about it. So you spent 120 to watch people disgust people? He asked.

He spent 120. I said.

Maybe he’s into BDSM that kind of stuff too. You know. The same vibe. Hegel. He said.

Dude, stop. I started laughing.

Have you checked? Maybe he has a micro penis too. That makes a lot of sense. He said.

No no no no. I said.

Fine. He said. Girl have standards. He tried to imitate me when I talk about Hegel.

We both laughed.

To be fair J is a nice person. He’s smart and has good music taste. I don’t want to disrespect him or his penis.