2024/6/24

Told big D I have locked my blog and I’m not happy about it. He asked me why, I told him I’m avoiding someone I suspect checking my blog but have no proof.

‘It’s like you are consoring yourself. This is bad.’ He said. He’s an artist. Expressing is all his life. He understands what I’m talking about.

‘Do you also feel like what you’ve written, or anything you created, feels like a part of yourself? Slightly?’

‘Yeah.’

‘The thing is, I want to hide myself from this person.’ I said. ‘Just him. Just this person.’

‘I feel like you are punishing yourself for someone else’s behaviour.’ He said.

‘Yeah. I’m punishing myself for being stupid.’ I said grumpily.