2024/11/2

It seems like HHZ won’t be joining me. His boss told him the feedback is very positive and very impressive so they’ll have more people in and start an official project. I’m happy for him. Asked him if he needs to reconsider our stuff (although I already know he won’t be in after he told me about the positive feedback 😂)he said maybe and gave me this emoji 🥺 and I said his job stuff is a more definitive good opportunity.

He should stick with Microsoft. He’s on the good streak now.

I thought about the conversation we had a few months ago, where we had a discussion about career, decision making and boyfriends.

It appears we have two different conundrums: He always have to choose and feel stuck between choices, whereas I always feel like there are no options and I’m finding my way in some sort of mist.

I don’t get why other people get so many options. I said. I never seemed to have any.

You just say no a lot. He said.

Really? I doubt. I feel like I’m a pretty easy going person.

Had a nightmare. Ran to my mum’s bedroom and sneaked in her bed. It woke her up. We spoke for a bit and I felt better. Went downstairs to eat passion fruit. My niece was still up. She wanted to sleep with the cat but my mum doesn’t allow cat in her bed so she asked if she can sleep in my bed. I said yes unwilling because I know from past records I’m not gonna get any sleep, but hey, just once right?

I wonder what she’s thinking. My niece said while holding the cat in her arm. An animal that’s interested in what another animal is thinking. Another sign of a person who’s deeply infected by the dangerous love virus.

In the afternoon my brother in law came to gave us some braised pork. He saw stem cell and said it’s ugly. Meh.