2024/10/11

Winter is coming. I can feel it at night from the inside of my left pelvic. 😂 It’s a weird way to feel but my inside feels slightly sore when it’s cold and rainy. I bought the ‘thickest wool trousers she has ever seen’ according to my mum. Are you going the South Pole? My sister commented. My knees and ovary feel cold. I said. It’s getting warmer every winter. She said. Global warming.

Fuck global warming. I’ve never seen so much rain at home. We are right next to the desert ffs. Have you seen flood in the desert? We did this year. Rain had also flooded and crashed the road around our neighbourhood.

I also don’t know if I’m compatible with the actor. He’s hot. Like seriously hot. The last guy I saw as hot was god’s-gift-to-women-aka-drug-dealer-park-Travis. But I feel like Mr actor doesn’t get my joke. And he text me oddly. Today is 重阳节 it’s like a festival for old people, he texted me out of nowhere saying it’s 重阳节today. so I replied huh? Are you wishing me a happy 重阳节? (This is supposed to be funny bc I’m not old. Plus, who text another person be like oh it’s old people’s day today??????????) he didn’t reply so I texted again said maybe we should go hiking and remember the brothers from ShanDong( it’s supposed to be funny too bc there’s a poetry literally saying the poet went hiking and at the top of the mountain he remembered and misses his brothers/friends from ShanDong. It’s a poetry/meme EVERYONE who went to primary school should know.) He asked why? You are not from ShanDong. I named the poetry and said I was only joking. 😅 He said something like haha didn’t catch the joke from the smart one.

I was listening to 360 and felt good so I asked if he’s single. He didn’t reply. I guess he isn’t. 😅

Earlier I finally went to watch the movie he asked me to(bc he was in it). It was not good. Me and my mum left early. But I can’t tell him. I texted him later saying I didn’t find him, he joked that’s because I wasn’t piously looking for him in the movie, I said I’ll piously look for you when the pirate version come out online. I asked if he’s shooting anything new recently. He didn’t reply. Bruh. And another day he asked me if I’ll live abroad again, I said I’m not sure and seems very unlikely(😅I mean… there isn’t anything out there for me anyway), I asked him why he asked. bc this is a odd question. he said just asking, I said ok, he said once you are abroad it’s basically like you lose all connect, I thought, which century do you live in? Im pretty sure you can sent text or even FaceTime in space nowadays. But I gave him a pretty honest and straightforward answer I don’t *plan* to live abroad and will probably be abroad for conferences and holidays only. Then he disappeared again. Dude’s seriously acting weird.

I had a wet dream this morning someone banging me from behind. I was lying on my tummy and pillow under my pelvis(to elevate it slightly). It was so vivid it had the detail of the penis accidentally slid out. The dream was so good when I woke up I intentionally kept my eyes shut and didn’t want to leave the bed for another 10 mins bc I was hoping to go back to the dream. But I didn’t.

Gosh I’m horny.

It’s not my favourite position. But at this point I would really like be dicked down

Thoughts: I wasn’t unhappy he didn’t get the joke. I think people have different ranges of knowledge and experience and it’s quite common it doesn’t overlap. I’m unhappy he text oddly by shooting random stuff and disappear. AND my gut tells me he has a gf. (Like another Sam situation. Fuckboy alert incoming